I feel depressed when listening to the record, Diary 25th 4 2013.

I feel unhappy when I am defeated by the defense on 21th April 2013. I was defeated due to the not proper preparation. I didn't read from Ch.1 to Ch3 again. I am ashamed of my English speaking, the way that I express my ideas. So shit. so hate myself.

but I have be strong, use this failure as motivation to lead myself move forward.

Sopheak. 

Plz Gods helps me.

I feel that i am ready to defense, but there is one obstacle that i have to deal with is Ajarn Thanawat . He asks me to discuss sth that seem difficult and eccentric for me.